What I learned when I took a couple days off...

I had a really bad day. As everything started to go wrong I thought "I should have expected this. Things have been going too well."

Then I took a couple days off... from life. It felt good.

I have been pushing myself to my limit every day for a long time. As a person living conditionally I simply can't do all the things the average person can do. Even on good days my functioning level is far below most peoples'. So I push myself. I learned not to push myself past my limits, but I push right up to that limit.

It's exhausting. It's also ridiculous.

Healthy people, "normal" people, don't push themselves to their limit every single day. And neither should I! Yes I will still push myself more than I should. But I am allowed to have days off. I will no longer push to the end of my limits every single day.

I feel better already.