Changing medications pt 2

The second stage of weaning was more difficult. There were several days I was incapacitated part of the day due to withdrawal symptoms.

Eating was difficult because my stomach was queasy and nothing tasted right. My family does donuts every Sunday, but I couldn't eat them. They were too sweet and made my stomach worse.

Sleeping was difficult to impossible for many days after coming off of one of the meds completely. That was stressful, to say the least.

But, overall, I was in good spirits and was coping reasonably well.

I was however getting more than a little nervous about the last stage of this weaning...

What I learned when I took a couple days off...

I had a really bad day. As everything started to go wrong I thought "I should have expected this. Things have been going too well."

Then I took a couple days off... from life. It felt good.

I have been pushing myself to my limit every day for a long time. As a person living conditionally I simply can't do all the things the average person can do. Even on good days my functioning level is far below most peoples'. So I push myself. I learned not to push myself past my limits, but I push right up to that limit.

It's exhausting. It's also ridiculous.

Healthy people, "normal" people, don't push themselves to their limit every single day. And neither should I! Yes I will still push myself more than I should. But I am allowed to have days off. I will no longer push to the end of my limits every single day.

I feel better already.