I'm a relatively intelligent person, well book smart anyway. There are some days when I have no access to that intelligence. It's incredibly frustrating, and crushing. Sometimes I tell people I can't brain, or I have the dumb. It's easier to make a joke than to go into the reality of it.
There's a combination of fibro fog, meds, depression fog, and trouble focusing among other things, that causes it. It's one more way I'm unable to function, one more impairment in a long list of them. One more failing in me, one more thing to compensate for.
How do you compensate for not being able to think straight? People say to get more sleep, but they don't understand that it doesn't matter how much sleep I get when my brain decides there are no spoons for thinking. All I can do is try not to do anything important that requires clear thought - like bill paying. It's amazing how many ways that can go wrong.
Far as I know nothing can be done about this except for what I already do to accommodate it. It makes me feel useless. Screw you brain, seriously.
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